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New Jack's Mannequin Tunes
CLICK! please<3
oh yeah, almost forgot...
STEVE STEC IS THE COOLEST KID IN THE MILKWAY! =]
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[02 Mar 2005|04:12pm] |
Hey, if I didn't add you to my new journal and you'd
like to be added just comment on it. I'm sorry, I lost track of the
whole list. So yeahhh, if you want to be added just comment ♥
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and for the record.. it's taken me like a million times to submit this entry. i really hate this read only mode crap.
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| "you were wrong, i just hope you're not alone" |
[26 Feb 2005|01:06am] |
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I went over Jeri's house last Sunday. We ate pizza, talked about alot, called people up on the phone and remorsed through our lovely box of 7th grade memories. What a fun night. ♥
School has been alright. I like all my classes except for English. If you have a teacher who doesn't step out from behind the textbook once in a while there is no point of even learning. It's how I think of it. Not that I have much experience with life, but from what I've seen or heard, you need to learn from more then just a textbook. In gym we're playing volleyball. Rock.
Today I went to the mall with Ms.Jamieee. We did a little shopping in FYE. Then just walked around the mall for fun. Saw a few people, chatted. Then took a stop at Friendly's to visit Steve who gave us regular sodas for the price of a childrens. Sweet. ♥
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| "now i am finally seeing, why i was the one worth leaving" |
[16 Feb 2005|09:15pm] |
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What's with LiveJournal lately? It's been really slow not always loading. I just wrote a dashing entry about the 80's, Jamie Zengel, and how I don't have tolerance for fakes and it's all gone. POOF. It disappered. I'll be commenting more, and writing more when LiveJournal starts working again. <3
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| " i really do want everything to work out like a motion picture ending" |
[14 Feb 2005|03:49pm] |
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Friday Shelly came over and we chilled. It was basically a day of movies, food and her brothers highschool yearbook. We watched the talent show and danced to everyones performance. It was so fun. Saturday, we watched more television and movies, ate more and attempted to play poker. I couldn't find a deck of cards so we made one. They rule. I love Shelly. <3
Last Wednesday I got a haircut and no one noticed. Usually, my haircuts aren't noticable, but this one was. I cut 4 inches of my hair. Jamie & Ashley were the only two who did notice. Jamie dyed her hair, I love it. In gym we have to do these dance routines involving 10 sports. It's pretty fun. I love my group, they rock.
Today is Valentines Day. Happy Valentines Day to all the couples out there. <3
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| "Nobody does it better, though sometimes I wish someone could" |
[08 Feb 2005|07:42pm] |
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"I believe we write our own stories and each time we think we know the end, we don't. Perhaps luck exsists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance and in the peace that comes from knowing that you just can't know it all. Lifes funny thay way, once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong."
-Stacy Holt, Little Black Book <3
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Today I finally returned to school. In the morning I went to meet up with Jamie by Ms.Mandrona's. We ended up not finding each other. I felt a feeling of new opportunities come upon me. I'm now starting the second semester of school. New classes, new people, new teachers, and new life lessons. In the past semester, not only have I learned how to say "Can I go to the bathroom?", among many other things in spanish, or that trying to take over Russia usually fails or even how tough the life of a journalist is I've learned other things. Such as friendship, trust, change and life in general. This new semester I am starting out different. I will still be the same Alison. I will just look at things alot differently. I will not let the little things worry me. I am going to take on my fears, battle my worries and let life be life. The stupid stereotypical things that used to bother me will no longer, hell with them. I don't care who your favorite band is and how many times you've seen them. Or that The Perks Of Being A Wallflower is your favorite book. I don't care that you loved Napoleon Dynamite and can recite everyline. I don't care that you have 500 My Space friends and that you never use your Live Journal anymore. I honestly don't care if you don't like me. I don't care if you don't like the clothes I wear or my hobbies. To me, all that is completely useless. I go to school to get my education, so that when I get older I can go to college and get a job I'm happy with. I go there to open up new opportunities for myself. I want to meet new people along the way. They don't have to be my best friends, or even friends. Just encounters with them will be fine with me. There is so much that I want out of life and to let all the little things bother me won't take me there. From now on I have no tolerance for fakes, liars and just all around unwelcoming people. If you're mad at me? You know what.. I don't care. I really do not care. Because that is life! C'Est la Vie, in the words of the French. High school isn't anything but rehearsal for the real world.
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| "would you want me when i'm not myself?" |
[31 Jan 2005|12:10am] |
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I'm back! I don't think I mentioned where I was going, but I'm back. In the last five days I've been in Las Vegas with my parents for my dads business. He owns a sign shop, so him and a bunch of other sign shop franchise owners got together and talked signs. Last time we went to one of these it was in Washington DC. Anyway, the good thing about the trip was I got to visit a place I've never been to before, I got to miss school and finals, and I got to compare Las Vegas to Atlantic City which is in New Jersey. The bad things are I missed Something Corporate, but dad told me that even if we didn't go to Las Vegas I wouldn't have been able to go to the concert anyway because it was on a school night and I had finals the next morning so I don't know if I should be disapointed or not? Also, I have to make up finals which sucks. Too bad I could't have taken them before I left, then I wouldn't have to take them now.
Day 1: We left for Philadelphia airport at promptly 6:00am in the morning to be there around 7:00 to catch our 8:20 flight. Evidently it was our first time going to that airport and we almost got lost and ended up in Delaware! Everytime we visit a state mom always buys a shot glass and a postcard. We joked about how we should've bought one from Delaware. When we finally arrived in the airport it was around 7:40 and the airline attendent told us that we couldn't make this flight. So to make it short we stuck around the airport until 3:30 for that flight which really left at 4:30. When we got to our hotel it was around 8 at night. There was this Sign-A-Rama dinner party we attended, then off to bed.
Day 2: Mom and I walked the Las Vegas strip from the Riviera, which was the hotel we stayed in, to the Paris hotel. We basically saw the insides of alot of those. They're pretty cool. I liked the Venecian alot, it reminded me of when I went to Portugal. When we set back for the hotel we met these two ladies who were really nice and this one guy who looks like my friend Rob. I always run into people who look like Rob!
Day 3: Sign-A-Rama arranged for the wives and kids of the franchise owners to go on a trip to see the Hover Dam. It reminded of me when I was younger going on field trips. We all sat in a bus and our names were called to make sure everyone was there. To tell you the truth, I think the kids from my class acted better then some of the women on this trip. Every siteing we'd stop at there was always someone missing! Anyway, I knew absolutely nothing about the Hover Dam and found out that it's in Nevada and Arizona. So basically we were in two states that day. Of course, mom didn't have to go and buy a shot glass and postcard in Arizona because we'd already been there once before. It was fun to joke though. When all 40 women were counted up with no one missing we left back for the hotel. That night there was a 70's party. They really got the decades wrong. People were dressed as hippies and I always thought hippies were a thing of the 60's with peace signs-- while afros, tight pants and disco balls were a part of the 70's. So basically it was a 60-70's party! They had contests that sign owners would win prizes if their name was pulled. My dads name wasn't pulled, although last year he won some computer software he already had!
Day 4: Dad skipped all his meetings and walked the strip with Mom and I. We ate lunch at this Mexican resturant in the Venecian. Then visited other hotels/casino we hadn't seen. We stopped at the M&M store. I stocked up on M&M's you can't find in New Jersey like teal and burgandy. At night yet another Sign-A-Rama diner party. This one was a boring awards ceremony. Basically the whole time they awarded "Louisville, Kentucky" and "The Defeo's from West Palm Beach Florida" over and over again. I'm happy for those people, way to go making your signs! They set up the diner party like you were actually at some famous award show with the red carpet. I wore my polka dotted dress. Some people had on gowns. And others had on a black skirt with a dressy top. I guess it was like your regular award show, all different outfits and the same people winning awards.
Day 5: I spent it on the plane reading The Catcher in the Rye. I'm up to chapter 24, only 3 more to go. So far I like it. I always find my best impression on a book by the ending. Like for example, The Outsiders.. I loved the ending or the way it was wrapped up. “When I stepped out into the bright sunlight from the darkness of the movie house, I had only two things on my mind: Paul Newman and a ride home.” Beautiful!
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| "it's a comic book crush, that taught you to trust" |
[16 Jan 2005|12:59pm] |
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I hate how I worry about too much and over think things to the extreme. I really can't stand feeling like this anymore. It's not a great feeling, I keep myself up at night going from thought to thought.
It's funny, this week started out good too. And it got better at the end, then exploded yesterday. I hate think to much. fkfjkghdfgdf.
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| "her eyes light up like fireflies.." |
[11 Jan 2005|06:08pm] |
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Rock. School was pretty good today. In World History I was awake and answering questions. The pupil seated behind me on the other hand was sleeping. I heard his snores and snorts. They didn't distract me though. We're learning about The Great Depression and World War II. They always interest me, I suppose because they weren't that along ago and are important in history.
There are about two weeks left until we switch semesters. I'm kind of disapointed about leaving my classes. I love coming to school and having Fashion Career first period, it's a great morning class. Next semester I will walk into Science in the morning. I'm acctually looking foward to Science, I really enjoy it, not as a morning class though. After Science comes Alegbra, Gym, Lunch then English. I'll have a load of more work but what can you do, it's school.
I'm going to miss finals and Something Corporate. We leave January 26th (day of Something Corporate concert) for Las Vegas because my dad has a business trip I guess you can say. It's for his work, so I guess tha works. I'm looking foward to seeing Las Vegas or as some refer for it "the city that never sleeps." I think "they" refer New York City as the too. I could be wrong on both accounts.
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| "don't you try to call the cops little girl..." |
[07 Jan 2005|10:45pm] |
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This week seemed to just drag on and on and on. It's finally Friday. I guess that's what happens after having winter break. We'll it's officially over and we haven't had a single snow day. This winter has been mild. I'm still convinced that Halloween came too early and through everything off track.
I don't know what it is with me. No matter how hard I try to keep my room perfectly spotless, I never do. Come Friday, there is always something on the floor. My bed it unmade and I have stupid little nicknacks out of place. Hmphf. I guess I have cleaning to do this weekend. Last weekend Julie, Amanda and I finished our Journalism project. We ended up doing a slide show with pictures of us from all ages. It was pretty cool we choose "Drama Summer" by The Starting Line as the music to go with it. I think it all mixed very well. We got a 97 on it. ; ]
I wish I had something to make this entry more interesting. I can't think of a picture or anything to put. I'm kind of tired. I'm in the mood to watch a good episode of My-So-Called-Life, evidently, to see it i'd have to stay up until around 5:00 in the morning. I catch the last half hour when I get up for school though. That's cool I guess.
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[03 Jan 2005|01:12am] |
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"Life moves pretty fast.
If you don't stop and look around
once in awhile, you could miss it."
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| "so this is the new year, and i have no resolution" |
[01 Jan 2005|06:35pm] |
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Hello everyone. Happy New Year.
I can't believe it's the new year. It feels like it should be Christmas. And Christmas felt like it should be Thanksgiving and Thanksgiving felt like Halloween and Halloween, came to early. Yeahhhh.
"The New Year" by Deathcab is such a great song. I been listening to it alot today. That and "New Year's Eve" by The Walkman. I should really make a New Year's Eve mix tape. I'll get a double dosage of Something Corporate's "Forget December" because of course that was on my Christmas mix tape. I love mix tapes. I should make a mix tape of all songs that remind me of 2004.
Anyway, yesterday Jeri came over and we watched movies, took pictures and what not. We watched the ball drop, but who doesn't. It really didn't feel much like a new years eve. Anyway, A Guy Thing has the best special features. Ha ha. "It's always going to be the three of us. You, Me and Jesus." We died watching that last year, and died this year. It's the besttttt. Oh, and the are-you-made-for-eachother test. hehe
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[26 Dec 2004|06:15pm] |
I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
And laid entwined together on a bed of clovers
Left there to sleep
Left there to dream of their happiness
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| the delights of christmas music..... |
[25 Dec 2004|08:22pm] |
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Yesterday morning I made the best Christmas mix tape. It made me think alot of past relationships dealing with everything. I'm listening to it right now. <3
For Christmas Eve we went to my uncle John's house. When I was younger my dad's side of the family would all gather at my grandma's warm, little cozy house. Then she had to move, and so did where Christmas Eve took place. Now it's at John's. It's not as fun. On two parts, we're all older and my aunt Lisa. All she does at family events is deliberately insult my mother, my aunt Aida, my cousin Vanessa and myself. She always complains. And to top it off has this unbreakable attachment to her family. She can't do anything without them. They all live around her. Which means, every Christmas Eve there are sudden visits. We're all used to it by now. This year, the month of December was spent determining where Christmas Eve would be. She was too 'ill' to have it at her house. It ended up there with my uncle doing everything and her lying in her bed. Visitors kept coming in every few minutes. My uncle Glenn joked about when "visiting hours" would be over. All and all it was a pretty fun night. We all joked, laughed, ate, exchanged presents. It was a good time.
Today my mom's family came over, as well as my dad's parents too. I spent most of the day with Amanda. I feel bad for her, her little brother Brian gets most attention because he's the new baby. She's so cute though. I'm so tired right now, she wears me out. I think everyone had a good time. I spent sometime with my dad's parents today. My Grandpa is getting so old, he now has hearing aids and still can't hear me. One time I asked him how he was, and he replied with "I love you too", that's just one of those times where you don't correct and you just give a hug and cherish the moment. <3. My Grandma is worried about Lisa and everything. I feel bad for John, he's the best uncle ever. Sometimes I don't think he deserves what Lisa puts him through. Justin too. Christmas Day was nice though.
For the record, mom and I are still fighting. Not as bad as the night before, more little things. I need to get through to her, that she doesn't listen to me when I tell her things. Jamie was calming me down this morning about everything. She says maybe I should talk to dad about it, I think I might just do that.
Well, I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday. I say holiday because of all the many celebrated around the world. Christmas, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa and every other. Happy Holidays to everyone. A little present from me, everyone should download "Maybe This Christmas", by Ron Sexsmith. It was featured in the OC. It's such a lovely song, kind of short, but it's real nice.
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| "I can't let you let me down again" |
[22 Dec 2004|09:18pm] |
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I just got in a huge fight with my mom and said things I wish I didn't. I really hate myself sometimes. Like right now. Acctually, I hate myself alot. I'm a horrible person. kgjdfklgjdfklgjdfgkljdf. Yeah.
I wish I could get away from everyone and everything. I really do. It would be alot better for everyone. All I am in right now is fights. FIGHTSfightsFIGHTS. I want to stay home from school tomorrow, but I can't. Monday I stayed home. JKHDJKHDFG. I really wish I could drive. AND GET AWAY FROM EVERYTHING! Nothing I ever do is ever good enough. I appologize, say how I feel? It gets me into more shit. I really hate this, so much. And for me to even look back and think things were okay. Or getting there, better even. Yeah, good job Alison. "And I've become content with this life that lead, where I drink too much and don't believe in much of anything and I lie to myself and say ~it's for the best~"
"Is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
So let's end this call and end this conversation
And is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say "best friends" means friends forever"
This isn't even about the fight with mom, or the fight with Jerica or whoever else. It's June 2004, when everything changed.
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| Dear Friend, |
[18 Dec 2004|11:22pm] |
"Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him and A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That is when Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed alot
And the new girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it
Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote poem
And he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with think lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed alot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it
Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his professor gave him and A
and a strage steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly
That's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen"
I finished reading "The Perks Of Being A Wallflower" last Sunday. ♥
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